man

I miss last year. So much. Theatre Charlotte with Stephanie, Madison and Matthew. Listening to Vampire Weekend, Stars, and Patrick Wolf obsessively, Charlie Brown, being homeschooled, every day being completely different, being in Charlotte a lot. I'm going to do Theatre Charlotte again in January. Hopefully it'll be as fun as it was before. I swear I'm going to live in Charlotte. Maybe in a really ghetto apartment, but I couldn't care less. It'll be great. I haven't seen Jake in about a month and a half. Apparently I'm a bad influence on him and I'm not allowed to see him...ever...again? I think was what they said. Oh well. This can't last forever. I'm kidnapping him when I get my license. Which will happen in under a month.

Love, Will.

XXX HXAXRXDXCXOXRXE

as some of you know, I certain item that is extremely precious to me was stolen a few weeks ago. My iPod is gone. And although I'm still upset at the thought of some asshole playing with it right now, I have moved on. My new iPod was ordered today. It was hard to let the old one go. With that said, I am excited about experiences I will have with my new one...and it says DRNT on the back of it. Which is kick ass as all get out.
Halloween is Saturday.
everyone check their candy for razor blades prior to consumption.

Love, Will

Typical.

She struts up to me
She whispers my name as if I know her
But I never knew her
She asks me the time, quarter to one, we go for a drive
I just don't know her
On the coldest night
In the darkest room
I will Sleep alone
Cause it's better than you, Yeah, it's better than you.
You can't play me like that
It's a matter of fact
You're nothing more, than a typical whore
And I won't be your fool.

you know what?

I hate this.
everything about it.
How I can still stand to be around you is beyond me.
hour 1: I'm fine. Nothing but happy thoughts.
hour 2: I need to talk to you. I NEED to. I can think of nothing but you
hour 3: I tail spin into depression and do nothing but walk around like a zombie. Nobody understands it. People will try to talk to me, it just goes right through my hollow head.
that's ridiculous.
completely.
fucking.
ridiculous.
I'm not sure what I did to bring this upon me
but whatever it was,
I sure as hell am suffering for it now.
I'm going to live for that one hour of happiness.
tomorrow's going to be a good day.
I swear to god.

Love, Will

9/29/09

tonight was honestly quite enjoyable. I had musical theatre today. Then went to Sonic and got fat. Then came home and sat by the fire and played guitar for a long bit. It was the chillest day I've had in a long time. I really needed it. I'm not really worried about the future anymore. I'm not worried about this. It'll work itself out. Wether it happens the way I want it to, doesn't matter. I'm good. I'm grounded. Therefore no coffee house on Friday. Fuck my life. That's the only thing that gets me through the week.
oh well. I'm doing well in school. I'm honestly proud of myself for the first time in maybe...2 years?
wow.

Love, Will

asdfjk.

I'm not depressed. Just sad a lot of the time. In your lifetime you don't get to see a lot of dreams come true. By the end of my life I have no idea what could happen. I have a way I want things to play out, but that by any means doesn't mean it's happening. Teenagers die every day. Wether it's a car wreck, being shot, or some other reason, teenagers die. Who's to say I'm not going to die later today? Or tomorrow? Fate has an odd way of playing out. So far it's nothing but a bitch. I don't like to think that I complain a lot, but I'm pretty sure I do. There's so much that I want to happen right now. So much that needs to happen. I'm probably one of the most patient people in the world because it's tested every single day.

who knows if it'll pay off.

Love, Will

I'll start my days as a messenger

Two months ago I couldn't imagine things would be like this. It seems so much has changed in such a short amount of time. It's literally mind blowing. Letting go of you has and will continue to be the hardest thing I've ever done. I don't care what you think about me now. I probably am different. I'm making changes. And I wouldn't be making them if I didn't think they were for the better. So go ahead. Say what you want. There's no way you can break me down more than you already have.

there's no way.

I decided it was time for a change.

so I changed it!
I'm no longer in a World History class full of mexicans.
instead I'm in honors! Yes. It is quite a step up, but I feel I can handle it.
I'm really excited about Fame. It could possibly be the biggest role I've had yet, but I'm not sure.
I'm listening to the Hash Slinging Slasher. They're really really good.
considering they got their name from Spongebob, I'm not sure how serious they were
but it's a shame they broke up.
9 came out today. Me and Becca are hopefully seeing it tomorrow. We'll see.
I can't believe she's moving in October. It's ridiculous. I'll have hardly anyone to talk to in all my classes. Oh well. I'll manage.
I'm in a relatively good mood. That's really rare for me nowadays.

we'll see how long it lasts.

Love, Will

I hope I bleed all day

I don't think you understand how hard it is to have everything remind me of you. I'm really happy to be able to get away from it, even if it is only for a couple of days. I hope you have a good weekend. I'm going to be thinking of nothing but you.

good lord I'm pathetic.
goodbye.

Love, Will

hey.

it's September.
it feels amazing outside.
school's going fine.
Fame auditions were tonight.
They went well.
I rented Guitar Hero 5 today to see how much it'll suck.
I should be really happy.
I'm not.

love, Will

our friends say it's darkest before the sun rises

I think that they're all wrong.
I hope it stays dark forever. I hope the worst isn't over.
I hope that you blink before I do, and I hope I never get sober.
and I hope when you think of me years down the line, you won't have one good thing to say
and I'd hope that if I found the strength to walk out, you'd stay the hell out of my way
I am drowning.
there is no sign of land.

possibly the saddest song ever written.

oh jeez.

this is my second blog named oh jeez.
I found that humorous.
I can perfectly immitate Tim Gunn.
I'm not sure if I should broadcast that
...make it work.

Love, Will

74.

I really don't like school. I just feel...bad when I'm there. I don't like school in general. I regret not homeschooling. But I guess it's getting my mind off of things. Which is good. My only friend is moving in a month. Now I might not have any friends in my classes. Wouldn't that be dandy? I despise my World History class. It's just...the worst. It's cold. Me and 2 other people are the only white people in there...and I'm not being racist. But when the entire class reeks and doesn't give a shit about school, I tend to get angry. I miss summer. I can't wait to sleep in on Saturday. I'll feel right at home.

Love, Will

73.

Then she leaves, with someone you don’t know. But she makes sure you saw her. She looks right at you and bolts. As she walks out the door, your blood boiling your stomach in ropes. And your friends say, “What is it? You look like you’ve seen a ghost.” Then you walk, under the streetlights, and you’re too drunk to notice, that everyone is staring at you. You just don’t care what you look like, the world is falling around you.
You just have to see her.

You know that she'll break you in two.

today was one of the worst things I've experienced.

from 1:00 this morning to right now.
it's been awful. I feel like I'm in a daze.
if anyone speaks to me I don't really talk back.
the worst things that could've happened, happened.
I lost everything.
consider this my resignation from blogging for a while.
stay classy

Love, Will

even all the words in my head couldn't string together a sentance

I need to get the new Cage album.
I forgot how much I loved him.
who thought anyone would gain success with a genre like "Dark Hip-Hop"
sounds lame.
it's not.

Love, Will

For Emma, Forever Ago.

It's very fitting music for my mood these days.
I enjoy it tons.
Adam will probably say something douchy about this entry
and how I'm a little slow on the uptake of Bon Iver
...I don't even know if he still reads this.
I don't care.
I'm so sick of hearing about Michael Jackson.
everyone hated him before he died.
it's pretty hypocritical that everyone loves him all of a sudden.
I keep looking at my phone.
I'm not getting anything.

Love, Will

Summer is almost over

it's hard to believe, but it's true.
this summer was not as good as I was hoping.
don't get me wrong, it was fine
just not as good as I was hoping.
sitting here drinking Tea and listening to Animal Colllective is the very escense of summer...
I probably spelled escense wrong
yes I did. It's essence.
okay then. Anyways
yes. Animal Collective. Tea.
Sarah's gone.
I'm bored.

Love, Will

I can't stand this.

I need to do something.
or I fear I may go insane.
I'm not seeing Sarah before she leaves tomorrow.
that just seems perfect right now.
the icing on the cake.

this was supposed to be fate.

it is.
and I couldn't be happier.

Love, Will

66.

I slept in until 3:00 in the fucking afternoon yesterday. Like seriously? There's something wrong with me. And I didn't hear Sarah at the door because I was asleep at about 12:30. That can't be healthy. Sarah and Scot came to my house at about 11:30 last night, we hung out on my deck until about 12:30. It was weird...but nice. My tummy is rumbling. It's time to eat food.
hell yeah.

Love, Will

save me, I'm lost.

I can honestly say that I'm pretty Harry Pottered out for tonight.
The Half Blood Prince met and exceeded expectations.
it was really good.
watching all but one of the Harry Potter movies in one day believe it or not, takes a lot out of you.
I feel like I should be speaking in a british accent...maybe I should be.
maybe I'm just tired.
it's shaping up to be a pretty good summer.
will it top last summer?
we shall see.
my bed is calling me for now.

Love, Will

mmh

this has been the first night in a real long time that I'm in a good mood. Tomorrow is Harry Potter day. All 5 movies at Sarah's house, then the Half Blood Prince at midnight. I'm excited to say the least. I'm going to bed now, but I decided I'd quickly update my blog.
I have my iPod back which is beyond amazing.

Love, Will

guh

not much to say.
I'm so fucking worried about my grandmother.

Love, Will

photobooth

today had it's ups and downs. It was the first day with Sarah being at the beach. I spent a couple of hours at the hospital today with my grandmother. She hasn't gotten any better. I've been getting a lot of rap about not being there, but honestly it's really hard to be there at all. I despise hospitals and she looks awful. My grandfather has spent weeks with her there. It's really really amazing and just sweet that he would stay there for her. And his will to be there is so strong, you can tell. Hopefully I'll never have to meet this situation. But if I do, I want to be just like him. Always by her side. Staying there all hours of the day for her. It's love. You can tell. Me and Nic are planning on being best friends again. Hopefully we'll stick with that.

Love, Will

late nights

are my favorite. Luckily every night this summer has consisted of me staying up until 4:00 drinking tea, talking to Sarah and Matteo, and occasionally watching Pineapple Express. And it's amazing. Sarah left for the beach today for 4 days. I don't know how I'll survive but things are looking up considering she just got her phone back. Today was the last day of Charlie Brown/ striking the set. Let me just say, for anyone that doesn't know me, I do not cry. It's not something I do. Ever. I bawled my eyes out at the end of the show today. And I'm not afraid to admit it. It was amazing. It was the best show I've ever been in. It was my life for over 3 weeks, and for it to be over so quickly? It's shocking to say the least, and I'll miss it more than words can express. Striking the set was also hard. It's one of the best sets I've seen. So it was sad to see it go down, but it had to be done. We've been watching Bridezillas all night. This show annoys the crap out of me...But for some reason, I cannot stop watching. It's pretty funny. Especially the huge black woman and their families. Where else would you hear "get your dress on before I slap the black off of you"?
poetry.

Love, Will

oh my god.

I'm a failure. The new Suicide Silence album is out
and I still don't have it
whereas I said I was going to get it the day it came out
...not that I have money for it
jesus I need a job.
tonight is the cast party for Charlie Brown
and it's at my house [HOLLLAAAAA]
ahem.
I'm excited to say the least.

Love, Will

Sarah and Zoe are beside me

hey guys!

Love, Will

Sarah Slusarick

I talk about you enough on here
but for you to have your own entry?
jeez. You should feel great.
I love you.

Love, Will

I am convinced

this is the best tea I've had in a while.
I was silent almost all day today
it was hard, but worth it. I think my voice sounded really good for Charlie Brown.
NEW CD'S
Robbers & Cowards- Cold War Kids
Fractured Life- Air Traffic
I'm really excited about both
as I've been meaning to get both for quite some time now.
the first two performances of Charlie Brown were last night and tonight
last night was awful.
just...awful
only on my part though.
I think everyone else did good.
tonight on the other hand was much better.
like I said my voice was better.
I think I'm addicted to Twitter.
fuck.

Love, Will

jeez

I honestly don't think things could've played out any better than they have.
I think at least for now,
I've found the meaning of happiness.
Charlie Brown opens tonight.
excited?
[yes]

Love, Will

56.

Today was a really good day.
for the first time in a long time
I'm going to bed happy.

Love, Will

EDIT- I have lost all faith in humanity.

Why Do The Hardest Things Have To Be Done?I Really Dont Undastand Why Things Cant Jus Be Simple i Mean iM Not 3ven Askin For Them To Be Simple All Tha Time.Jus Every Once iN A While.Ughh I Definitly Need My Life To Be Like A Movie Right Now.One 0f 2 Things Need To Go Down At This Point.She Needs To Have A Big Epiphany And Realize She Was Wrong And How Much She Loves Me 0r Some Stranger Needs To Come Sweep Me 0ff My Feet And Make Me Fall For Them.i Will Take 3ither optionKk.Thanx.

this is something one of my Myspace friends posted in a bulletin...I then deleted her.
You have no idea how hard I laughed at this
how long does it take for someone to capitolize the first letter in every word
I mean seriously?

jesus.

tonight was the most ridiculous thing I've ever experienced.
if someone told me this happened to them
I would laugh.
but yet it's pretty serious to me right now.
ugh.
go away tonight.

Love, Will

hokay so

I'm guessing all of you are familiar with the little ads that show up on the right side of the screen on Facebook?
some of them are really fucking weird.

I just saw a few today that I would like to share with you

ok. Bullet point time.

1. that has got to be the creepiest picture I've ever seen. Could they have not found a better picture of this "cute christian girl" which, I don't find her cute in this particular picture, and how are we supposed to know that she's even christian? So what does that leave us with? ...Girl?

2. Hook up with 1000's of local...what the fuck? 1000's? Dude, seriously? It baffles me that somehow thousands just wouldn't cut it. And I love the apostrophe in between 1000 and S

3. If these girls are so christian that they would join a christian singles website...why would they be "hooking up?" The last time I checked [and correct me if I'm wrong] hooking up means in the very least having some physical relations with someone else...is this not against christianity? whatever.

NEXT ONE

1. What the hell does this even mean? It tells you nothing about what will happen if you click this link. It's almost like a billboard...but at least a billboard tells you what they're talking about?

2. This picture is just beyond weird. I understand the whole selling your soul to the devil and shit...but why couldn't they have just put an actual devil? Instead of some creepy blonde guy with devil horns with that prickish grin...

ugh.

Internet ads.

Today was a good day.

Love, Will

Carnavas

is a great album.
Swoon is too
but it just doesn't top it.
Silversun Pickups is unique in all of their naming
I.E. Silversun Pickups- the name of a conveniant store in their hometown- Silversun California
Carnavas- The maiden name of singer Brain Aubert's mother
me and Brett recently tried to follow in their footsteps by naming our band The Arbors
[named after Arbors plaza somewhere in Harrisburg]
but failed misserably as The Arbors are a contemporary classical band from the 60's?
[fuckourlives]
why am I telling you all this?
I have no fucking clue.
I just listened to Carnavas
it's 4:00 in the morning
I just did 4 days worth of school work
and some of you will read this shit no matter how idiotic it is
woot.

Love, Will

HELL YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well last night was interesting.
I got threatened by a guy I've met once.
me and Jake played 24 out of the 84 songs on Endless Setlist.
I swear to god if this fucking AIM update window doesn't stop popping up I'm going to murder something.
anyways.
rehearsal was good tonight...I think.
I hate it when people put things in italics in their blogs
like it makes them deep or something.
I don't want to offend anybody
but honestly?
does this make me cool?
I'm obsessed with Animal Collective.
a bad thing?
[nahh.]

Love, Will

51.

it's Bill Murray night at my house.
we've watched Groundhog Day and What About Bob
which I'm a huge fan of both. So no problems there.
right now a bag of twisted bbq flavored fritos are sitting up on my kitchen counter
I feel awful. I haven't eaten them in 2 days when 2 days ago I was obsessed with finding some.
oh well. Please forgive me Fritos.
after reviewing some of my older blogs I've come to the conclusion
...my entrys are fucking weird.
I seriously don't have anything to talk about.
so I find things to talk about.
and while I wouldn't consider this a bad thing,
the results are definitely nothing less than...fucking weird; as I said before.
but if you're still reading you obviously could care less.
and that makes me happy. Thank you for reading.
today we went to my Grandparent's house
brought my grandmother dinner.
she ate a lot which is good. But she looks really bad.
she's extremely sick for anyone that doesn't know.
Bombadil is an awesome band
it makes me proud to know that we have that kind of music coming out of Concord NC.
anyways
this is my blog.
haha [isuckatlife]

Love, Will

Nostalgia

it's a great thing.
I can just sit here and listen to We Have the Facts
and not think about a single other thing but last summer.
woot.
this summer will be good.
I feel it.
in my bones.
period.

Love, Will

we ain't payin' till the heat comes through

I'm going to break my streak of pointless blogs.

and say something with significance.
you're the reason I wake up in the mornings.
you're my life.
without you I'd be nothing.
a pile of dust on the floor.
I never want to hurt you.
I never want to make you upset.
I seem to be doing that a lot lately.
I'm so sorry.
I'm incredibly sorry.
stupid.
stupid me.

love always, Will

The Dream of Evan and Chan

I'm not really sure why, but I always associate Christmas with that song.
it was on my Myspace one year all through December
and every December since then [2] I've put it on.
it's on my Myspace right now
and I can't help but think I'm somehow screwing something up
like this Christmas I'm not going to put it on
maybe I should take it off.
maybe I'm just weird.

Love, Will

hay

wassup ya'll?
I saw Drag Me to Hell today.
for anyone that has heard me slam that movie
I apologize. It was pretty freakin' sweet.
I've been obsessed with a Blink-182 song the past few days.
please help me.
the new Suicide Silence song is amazing.
how amazing Will?
so much that I put it on my Myspace despite the fact that I will probably get a lot of comments bashing it.
screw that.
I'm in a weird mood.

Love, Will

where are you
and I'm sorry
I can't sleep, I can't dream tonight.

hi, my name is Will Slusarick.

I was home a total of 3 minutes today.
if that.
I feel really bad
but to say I was neglecting my family would be a bit narcissistic.
hell, maybe they don't even miss me.
I hope that's not the case though.
I'm so effing tired, you guys have no idea.
it was a good day though

good day.

Love, Will


P.S. I'll have an epically long entry pretty soon.
pinky promise.

you cut me down a tree and brought it down to me

I could write a song a hundred miles long
that's where I belong
and you belong with me.

Love, Will

we will chase the bright lights until we're done

today was interesting.
I saw the very concept of art thrashed to pieces today.
I tried to crawl under a gas hose and it came out and sprayed all over me and Sarah today.
We spent three hours on one song for Charlie Brown today.
I saw everyone I know at one restraunt today.
I was at rehearsal while my entire family saw my second favorite band today.
I've only listened to My Girls once today.
that's a record so far.
I made my 50th Tweet today.

Love, Will

things I'm currently obsessed with?

Animal Collective.
Sarah Slusarick.
Bon Iver.
Okami.
We Have the Facts and We're Voting Yes.
You're a Good Man Charlie Brown
Will Gnar (12:00:29 AM): :C
Will Gnar (12:00:31 AM): THAT'S WHAT
OMFG you is lame (12:00:44 AM): C:
OMFG you is lame (12:00:47 AM): :C
Will Gnar (12:00:50 AM): HULK HOGAN
OMFG you is lame (12:01:00 AM): :C
Will Gnar (12:00:55 AM): PASS THE PEAS BROTHERR
that.

Love, Will

I told you to be patient.

and I told you to be fine.
I told you to be balanced.
I told you to be kind.
In the morning I'll be with you
But it will be a different kind.

this place is a prison.

and these people aren't your friends.
it is 3:10 A.M.
and I feel like total shit.
this is pointless.
life isn't fair?
I'm an idiot.

38.

somebody on Facebook today gave me a list of bands I should check out.
Vampire Weekend
DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE
3OH!3
...are you serious?
like,...seriously?
so much to say.
I got to see Sarah for a total of 15 minutes today!
dandy.
UP was really really good.
despite the fact that the entire movie couldn't have possibly happened, I really liked it.
I'm basically in love with my new phone.
wow I feel really deep after writing all this.
whatever.

Love, Will

winwinwin

today was great.
I got a new phone today.
which is great.
I got to see Sarah today.
which is great.
I got to be surrounded by the people I'm spending the summer with
which was great.
the pictures that Sarah took on my phone
are great.

Love, Will

phone.

my phone is about to die, and never come back on again.
I'm going to miss it. A fucking lot. Although it may be the crappiest phone ever, it's been my friend, my companion, part of my connection to the outside world. I've had a lot of good conversations on it. And a lot of bad ones too.
I love you phone.
I'm going to miss you more than I can say.
rest in peace.

Love, Will

wow

I haven't updated in a while, because I have nothing to say...and I still don't.
jeez.
I just wanted to make it known that I'm not abandoning anyone.
I'm pretty sure I just spelled that wrong.
when I have something to write
I will.

Love, Will

this basically sums up my weekend;

tonight has been crazy.

5:30-9:00 The Trial
9:00-10:30 Brixx Pizza
10:30 Sarah passes out.
11:00 the ambulance arrives
11:00-11:45 it takes us forty five minutes to get there due to obstacles.
11:45-2:30 hospital with Sarah
it is 2:47 and I am typing this now.
good lord.
I'm tired.

Love, Will

am I in heaven or hell?

Almost is over.
the crowd was awful tonight. AWFUL. I spent the night with Kyle last night. We watched Arthur Takes a Piss so many times it's not even funny. We even made a video imitating it. We went outside at 2:30 and laid down in his cul-de-sac and watched the Stars for about an hour.
I'm sure he'd want me to say this so, WE SAW A SHOOTING STAR AND IT WAS PERFECT...it was. Kyle's a bit of a deep thinker. I was very surprised.
Today was bad...tonight made it better.
SoKo...why did you have to quit?

Love, Will

damn.

the weather is so fucking depressing.
it doesn't help.
last show tonight.

it's 2:14

and sleep doesn't find me.
Adam came to Almost today
what's more, Adam came to Almost today with a buzz cut.
it made my night. He says to me "I really really enjoyed that man, I haven't seen a play I enjoyed that much in a really long time. I'm thinking about seeing it again on Saturday."
he's basically my hero.
I spent the rest of the night with Noah and Maddie Medlin. It was great. I don't see them that often; I forgot how much I missed them.
sometimes I think about last summer. It was definitely the best I've spent in a really long time. Not because of the stuff that happened, but because of the stuff that represents that time. For instance, Okami, We Have the Facts [I was obsessed with that album] Jake's house, Rock Band...good god. I miss it. I highly doubt I'll ever have a better summer. I'm hopeful though. And although I'm surely not going to top it this summer, I'm sure as hell going to try.
I miss my iPod. I miss spending days with Sarah and Sarah only.
I just found out that Star Trek does not have a C
also J.J. Abrams
not Abhrams
thanks Adam.
Fuck my life.

Love, Will

My Mirror Speaks

I'm sick.
I'm drinking tea.
It's cold in here.
I'm pretty sad.

I’m a man who hides from all that binds
And a mess of fading lines
And there’s a tangled thread inside my head
With nothing on either end

Love, Will

I was sifting through my Photobucket account today...

and I found this.

I litterally laughed my ass off for 15 minutes.
I apologize if this girl is reading this right now.

there must be a devil between us

The Pixies have entered my top ten bands.
congrats.
I've been sick the past two days. For anybody that doesn't know me, I never get sick. Ever. The last time I got sick was at the begining of 2008. But when I eventually do get sick, It's hardcore. Throwing up, sneezing constantly. It's not good. But luckily enough, [I wouldn't call it luck] Sarah and my DaMATTEOd are both sick as well. So I don't feel completely pathetic. We're having a pickup rehearsal for Almost on Wednesday
bullshit.
I was expecting four days without having to do this play again.
nope, three days.
I'm seeing Sarah's play on Sunday. I'm pretty excited about it, although I'm not sure what to expect from the things she's told me about it.
the Survivor finale was last night, and so was Dane Cook's new comedy routine.
Survivor was amazing. I honestly haven't been that interested in a season of Survivor since the second season, but for some reason I watched every episode.
mmh.

Love, Will

that's deep man?

I have no idea why I have chosen this name for my blog. Nothing on here has yet to be even close to being deep. But I like it anyways, so I'm keeping it. I've been updating my Twitter a lot. For something as simple as updating your status, I never thought I'd be as into it as I am. I've recently become obsessed with Interpol. I haven't been this fascinated with a band since I first got into Death Cab. I've owned Turn on the Bright Lights for a long time, but after listening to it on repeat one night, I love them. I love Sarah. I love Matteo. I love Almost, Maine. I love a lot of things right now.

why can't I be like this all the time?

Love, Will

22.

today was a success.
Noah's house- editing the movie
Almost, Maine With Sarah there
cast party complete with Rock Band
staying up until 3 A.M. texting Sarah.
success.
success indeed.

Love, Will

21.

Almost, Maine opened last night. It was ok. Me and Jennie's scene was really messed up. We then went to Charlotte to pick up Sarah as we usually do. We went to Fuel Pizza and stuffed our faces...it was pretty cool. Tonight is the cast party at Jennie's house. I guess I'm pretty excited.
OMFG you is lame (1:45:12 PM): yooooooo
OMFG you is lame (1:45:31 PM): I have an english muffin
OMFG you is lame (1:45:33 PM): c:
Will Gnar (1:45:19 PM): :C
OMFG you is lame (1:45:39 PM): HAHA
Will Gnar (1:45:22 PM): HULK HOGAN
OMFG you is lame (1:45:40 PM): :C
Matteo always puts me in a good mood.

Love, Will

last night I dreamt I was you

Lost just ended.
I'm at a complete loss for words.
Almost, Maine starts tomorrow.
woo.
go life.

my,

what an interesting night.

Love, Will

this battle will be won.

the new Patrick Wolf dates were posted late last night. He's coming to Carrboro which is roughly two hours away from my house.
hell to the effing yes.
I'm pretty sure that's the closest he's ever been which is exciting.
now...all I need is money for a ticket, someone who wants to go, and someone who will be willing to take me...it's a long shot, but it just might work.
I'm going to be honest. Almost, Maine is wearing thin on my nerves. It's nothing to worry about, I'm usually tired of plays by tech week. But it all works out in the end. Last night I wanted to blow my brains out. It was one of the worst days I've had in a while. But for what reason? I have no clue. By traditional standards, that day would've been awesome. Asian cafe, Target, getting harrased by fat black people in Best Buy about my drumming skills on Rock Band. It was just one of those days I guess, where you just feel down. I hope you guys can sympathize. But everything was perfectly fine by the time I went to bed.
so, all in all, good day.
maybe I just didn't get enough time alone.
I really miss Jake.
I miss my best friend.
I miss playing Rock Band until 4:00 and then sneaking out with his wasted sister.
I miss his crude sense of humor that is sometimes too much to take.
...no homo.

Love, Will

Pull the chord from the phone, I am dining alone tonight.

well, me and Adam were supposed to see Star Treck today. But he had to work early...so we didn't. But Wednesday is going to be our J.J. Abrhams day. Star Treck, then LOST finale
I might make a banner above my door...probably won't.
92%.
new CD's today!
Tapes n' Tapes: Walk it Off
Wilco: Sky Blue Sky
Chatham County Line: The Speed of the Whirlpool
if only I had my iPod...I miss it.

Love, Will

these are my friends, this is who they have been forever.

for the first time in a very long time, I find myself in a position where I have no idea what to do. I'm at a loss for ideas and words. Maybe I'll just keep silent.
goodnight everyone.

15.

happy mothers day eerbody.
I just got back from dropping off my sister at the airport. She's going to Ireland for 2 and a half weeks...lucky. I would do anything to get out of here right now. The new Patrick Wolf album is incredible. I honestly haven't been this fascinated with an album since The Hazards of Love. Sarah, Scott and I saw Watchmen on Thursday...it was amazing. To my complete and utter surprise both Sarah and Scott loved it. That made me really happy. My entry's have been really half-assed lately. Sorry. Let's just hope it's only a phase.

Love, Will

If you really wanted to go why was I the last to know?

Why is it that every time I hear your name my stomach drops
Why is it that I don't want to go to places where you're not
Why is it that you're the only thing I think about

I don't get it.
It's not fair.

Love, Will

13.

I'm tired beyond belief. I spent most of last night at Jennie's with Sarah. It was pretty much the most fun I've had in a long time. We started a band on Rock Band called THAMOFO$ and we all made characters that look just like us...except for Sarah, that felt the need to dress hers in short shorts and a really tight flannel shirt. Who knows, she may dress like that in her free time.
Dealership has just entered my top 10 bands. Congratulations Dealership. And don't be discouraged by the fact that it changes daily. I would like to have more nights like last night.

Love, Will

Ain't no party in a sad sad city

well today was not bad at all. 3:00-4:00 Stickam with Jessi and Matteo + 456 anonymous creepers...4:00-5:30 haircut [Allison got hers cut too; it didn't take an hour and a half to cut my hour] athough it looks like it. It's really short and I'm not sure if I like it or not...We'll see. 5:30-8:00 Sarah's house WITH Sarah 8:00-12:30 babysitting Zoe WITHOUT Sarah. We came up with 8 inside jokes. It matters. Because it just does. I've been meaning to listen to the new Silversun Pickups album, but without my iPod it's kind of hard to considering I don't own a CD player for myself...maybe I should change that. Sarah brought it to my attention tonight that she can tell when I'm depressed because I won't put Love, Will at the end of my blogs...it's true.

Love, Will

11.

Today is shaping up to be a really really bad day.
I guess it's nobody's fault but my own.

Will.

10.

Possibly the dumbest thing I've said in a while: I'm not a fan of Cold War Kids actually.
fuck that. They're fucking brilliant.
When I cuss around the youth leader at my church he says that cussing is for people with bad vocabularys. I disagree. I believe they're sentance enhancers, not only quoting Spongebob, but I believe this to be true
it's just a completely different sentance if you were to say "ahh my freaking knee" compared to "ahh my fucking knee!" I really hate saying words like freaking around people I can't cuss around. It's just lame. I'm in a comment war with this kid on Youtube. it's actually really funny. Although I would usually dislike confrontation like this, every time I get a reply from him it almost makes my day because I can just shoot down everything he says; therefore making me feel better about myself. This isn't the first time, however, that I have been in a Youtube flame fight. This kid started screaming at me for god knows what through personal messages a while ago. I stand by my description of Youtube: it's like a group of the meanest people are put into a room and asked to watch videos and make negative comments about them. I finally caught up on Lost today and got to watch it tonight. I have no idea how the hell they make this show for two reasons; how they make it so amazing, and how everything fits in so perfectly. For instance (for anyone who doesn't watch it) they're in 1976 right now on the island, and they're explaining things from the first season. It's almost like they're doing it backwards...genious. For anyone still reading this, I'm going to put all the interesting stuff at the end. I've been kissing Jennie A LOT lately. At the begining of this show, I thought I might've had a problem with it, and I can understand me not minding this far into it, but I honestly didn't care the first time we did it. It's not like it means anything...right?
just kidding. Of course it doesn't.
good god, this is the longest entry I've made...
sorry guys.
I really really really miss Sarah...it's amazing how you can see someone every day for a while and then three or four days seems like a long time...I need her.

Love, Will

oh look, it stopped snowing

I get my phone back this weekend
but my iPod, sadly, will not be given to me until the end of the school year...are you fucking kidding me? You can deprive me of my happiness...but you can't deprive me of...dammit.
I didn't even get a chance to listen to the new Patrick Wolf album.
I'm an idiot.

Love, Will

8.

I'm not allowed to be on here.
I'm grounded from everything and as my mom calls it I'm "unplugged"
no iPod. No Internet. No PHONE. No Playstation.
...no iPod= no music
no music= ...?

FML.

-Will

7.

I used to write in this little journal book I have in my room every night. Sometimes I'll pick it up, write in it for two or three nights, then find it stupid, and find a new hiding spot for it. So that someday I'll find it, but others won't. I covered it in duct tape and have made a lot of modifications to it since it was a purple Harry Potter Diary. I think I'm going to burn it sometime soon. So that nobody can read those thoughts. Wether happy, or sad, they're gone. All those times are gone. There's no point in bringing them back up...right? Something tells me that in a couple of years, this blog will turn into that.

Maybe I'll have to burn it too.

-Will.

hey snow white

I hate to bitch;
but I'm really fucking sick of this.

you know all the slot machines are robot amputees waving hello

It's been a really depressing last couple of days. I talked to Matteo for about an hour last night on the phone. That really helped a lot. Testing is finally over as of a couple of minutes ago! Jenny's party is tonight, and me and Sarah are going clothes shopping...for me. I have no idea what I'm going to get or if I'll even have enough money. Probably not. This blog is going to be just me rambling because I don't really have anything to say...I need a new phone. Death Cab's new EP is really really good. I told Sarah I put the album art on my wall...but I still haven't. I don't really see the point in lying about stuff like that, so I apologize...I seem to be doing a lot of that lately. I'm really excited about Charlie Brown this summer. I think it's going to be amazing; considering it's going to be on THE MAIN STAGE! Those balls are going to be everywhere.
and it will be amazing.

Love, Will

I've changed this blog title 3 times.

Today, I was woken up at 9:30 because it's testing week. Torwards the end of the every school year homeschoolers have to take tests...just like "normal people" and I take these tests at my church. So I was woken up at 9:30 to go up to the third floor of our church which is freezing because someone decided to leave the window open. Perfect testing conditions. I'm on break right now actually. We went by Chic-fil-a to see Sarah which was pretty amazing...that is it would've been if we could've talked. Oh well. This is a short entry I know
and I apologize.

Love, Will

woo

Happy 420 everyone!

mmh I haven't updated in forever...wait, "update" is Xanga, not Blogspot. Forgive me. I have not blogged in a long time. Last week I went to the beach with Jake for spring break. It was hell while I was there for certain reasons, but looking back on it now I think I had a lot more fun than I realized at the time. Oh well. I slept over at Sarah's on Friday when I got back because I missed her so much. We watched Orange County, then Finding Nemo twice. I forgot how much I love Orange County. That movie is amazing. I have no doubt in my mind that Lance is the funniest part Jack Black has ever played. Pooh is over. Which is a relief, and kinda bitter. I don't have anything to do anymore, and I won't see Sarah every day. And to top it all off, she's quiting Almost, Maine to do some stupid thing in Charlotte. I just happen to remember a story I would like to share with you guys. Thursday night [the night before departure] we decided to walk out on the beach. After Jake runs away with my shoe and throws it up on the dunes, we continue to walk down the beach where a mass group of people are huddling around one spot. Thinking it's a dead shark or something, we decide to walk over to determine what's going on, when we do, this woman turns around and asks Jake where his shirt is, acting like she's known us for years. I then ask "what is this?" and she answers "it's a memorial service...a family thing" Well as you can imagine, we feel pretty damn stupid. So we simply run back down the beach. Possibly the funniest thing to occur on that trip?
[yes]
















I love Sarah.

Love, Will

ugh.

it's 1:16 in the morning, and I'm effing tired. But I'm just going to talk about some stuff.
I'm utterly sick of Whinny the Pooh. I hate the kids in that play. I was talking to Sarah earlier tonight and we were naming how many kids we could actually tolerate, I came up with 4. FOUR EFFING KIDS out of a cast of about 25. That's sad. I don't know what the fuck these kids have against me, or why they just hate me but it's really pissing me off. I hate kids in the first place so that's already a strike against them, and I normally wouldn't give a shit what some snot-nosed third grader had to say about me, but there's just something about them that angers me when it's mentioned that I'll be filling in a part for today and a groan goes around the entire room. I think that would upset anybody. Luckily there are a few kids I can turn to without being insulted upon contact. But without Sarah being there, I think there might be some lawsuits on my hands. Well apparently "some stuff" is just one thing. I'm too tired to write anymore for I feel that my head may drop onto my keyboard any secoa;lskdjfiea

Love, Will

New Blog.

well since Gayspot is fucking retarded, my blog got deleted because I made a Gmail account as a joke and I then deleted that mail account...how the hell did this happen? Don't ask me. Recently Sarah told me that she reads my blog. So I decided to make a new one. SPEAKING OF SARAH, we're going to the Death Cab for Cutie concert on Thursday. For anyone that doesn't know either of us, I'm obsessed with Death Cab, and Sarah...less than likes them. So she's taking me why? Because she loves me. Now, I don't have to tell any of you that this is probably the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me. Ever. I love her more than words can say. I'm more excited than words can say as well. Ra Ra Riot. Death Cab for Cutie. Cold War Kids. It's going to be an awesome show. This past Saturday after rehearsels, me, Sarah, Matthew, Jenny, Kyle, and Richard went to Myer's park and took KFC for a picnic. Sarah and Matthew threw Macoroni and green beans all over Richard...it was incredibly rude and mean and the funniest thing that happened all day. I admit it.
AND THEN yesterday, (sunday) we went to Charlotte with Kyle and Lindsey to see Sarah's show which was awesome. All the black people would be like OOOOHHH every time someone cussed. The Slusaricks basically adopted me. I seriously wasn't home all day haha
it was like life
with the Slusaricks.
Watchmen on Wednesday by the way.
I always think that Wednesday is spelled weird
because it is
just like February...what the hell is that R doing there?
anyways, it's good to have my blog back...sorta.

Love, Will