9/29/09

tonight was honestly quite enjoyable. I had musical theatre today. Then went to Sonic and got fat. Then came home and sat by the fire and played guitar for a long bit. It was the chillest day I've had in a long time. I really needed it. I'm not really worried about the future anymore. I'm not worried about this. It'll work itself out. Wether it happens the way I want it to, doesn't matter. I'm good. I'm grounded. Therefore no coffee house on Friday. Fuck my life. That's the only thing that gets me through the week.
oh well. I'm doing well in school. I'm honestly proud of myself for the first time in maybe...2 years?
wow.

Love, Will

asdfjk.

I'm not depressed. Just sad a lot of the time. In your lifetime you don't get to see a lot of dreams come true. By the end of my life I have no idea what could happen. I have a way I want things to play out, but that by any means doesn't mean it's happening. Teenagers die every day. Wether it's a car wreck, being shot, or some other reason, teenagers die. Who's to say I'm not going to die later today? Or tomorrow? Fate has an odd way of playing out. So far it's nothing but a bitch. I don't like to think that I complain a lot, but I'm pretty sure I do. There's so much that I want to happen right now. So much that needs to happen. I'm probably one of the most patient people in the world because it's tested every single day.

who knows if it'll pay off.

Love, Will

I'll start my days as a messenger

Two months ago I couldn't imagine things would be like this. It seems so much has changed in such a short amount of time. It's literally mind blowing. Letting go of you has and will continue to be the hardest thing I've ever done. I don't care what you think about me now. I probably am different. I'm making changes. And I wouldn't be making them if I didn't think they were for the better. So go ahead. Say what you want. There's no way you can break me down more than you already have.

there's no way.

I decided it was time for a change.

so I changed it!
I'm no longer in a World History class full of mexicans.
instead I'm in honors! Yes. It is quite a step up, but I feel I can handle it.
I'm really excited about Fame. It could possibly be the biggest role I've had yet, but I'm not sure.
I'm listening to the Hash Slinging Slasher. They're really really good.
considering they got their name from Spongebob, I'm not sure how serious they were
but it's a shame they broke up.
9 came out today. Me and Becca are hopefully seeing it tomorrow. We'll see.
I can't believe she's moving in October. It's ridiculous. I'll have hardly anyone to talk to in all my classes. Oh well. I'll manage.
I'm in a relatively good mood. That's really rare for me nowadays.

we'll see how long it lasts.

Love, Will

I hope I bleed all day

I don't think you understand how hard it is to have everything remind me of you. I'm really happy to be able to get away from it, even if it is only for a couple of days. I hope you have a good weekend. I'm going to be thinking of nothing but you.

good lord I'm pathetic.
goodbye.

Love, Will

hey.

it's September.
it feels amazing outside.
school's going fine.
Fame auditions were tonight.
They went well.
I rented Guitar Hero 5 today to see how much it'll suck.
I should be really happy.
I'm not.

love, Will